... of being homesick and putting on Bloo on self timer mode. The three above are among the selected few that I decided to post up, yes, I took quite a few, especially that of me and that silly "Happy Chinese New Year 2009, love teddy" sign. >< Well, just so you know, we had a "better" than usual dinner (which really isn't much difference really) on New Years Eve, and yea, that's pretty much it, and as extravagant as it gets. I spent my first day of Chinese New Year, doing breakfast and dinner kitchen duty, so that's just how it was.

Anyways, a picture just to let my loved ones know, that I'm fine, I'll be fine and to rest assured that I'm doing alright. (don't mind the lousy background, didn't realize until I uploaded it from Bloo too Gerard) Yes, I actually bothered to put on my red cheongsam top just to get myself in the mood. It's was Australia Day, on Chinese New Year though.

Happy Lunar New Year 2009 all =] Much love.

P.s Teddy misses home, still.

Sitting here, staring at this screen, thinking. Tired. Just tired of everything. Yearning to not have to shoulder responsibilities. Yearning not to have emotions so that everything does not get to oneself. Yearning to be home, all this one thinking how one has taking things for-granted. Yearning to be at the many "omg-let-me-go-home" dinners. Work is the escape, studies yet another to bury myself. Materialism, how it overtakes my purposes. How it really takes me by the hand and it's all that drives me. Time, funny how it slows and speeds up like it's nobody's business. Learning, yet never seem to learn. Yearning to run, puts foot in front of the other only to trip and fall. The effing irony of it.

The many times one thinks of the choices and decisions made. The road taken. The many "what ifs" asked. Would it have really been better? Would it be different? Would I have been happier? Is it for the better? Is it just for now, these emotions, these times?

Yet another rambling that goes nowhere and leaves me frustrated.

Carry me, because I know all I need is You.

Back.

Been work swapped. Juggling kitchen duty, Woolridges, time on the phone with loved ones. Been taxed physically, emotionally and yes, financially. The bloody internet has been down and hence the absence. Managed to get it working, so will be updating more.

Chinese New Year Eve.

Not home. Faraway. Disconnected. Lost. Confined.

Bloody friggin homesick. Freaking frustrated.

HOMESICK. (Whiny? Just for this post.)